Absent but not away

It's a cliché, isn't it?

But that's the best way for me to put it... these past few days have given me jolts of enthusiasm and motivation; am I indulging myself?

You be the judge.
Don't let it be mediocre... help me out.

"I have been absent but not away,
I'm back home, problems kept at bay,
I felt your presence,
But not now,
But not now.

Colouring my ignorance with dreams,
Now at large, free thoughts and schemes,
(They) become the quintessence,
Of me now,
And how.

In a state of constant numbness,
All is a blur,
All that occur.

I can't stay and wait in line,
I feel chilled shivers down my spine,
Time is of the essence,
Time is now...
Time is now."

      - in "Absent but not away", by Hyug Badox