Unnatural

A long time ago, I was extremely into conceptual and digital music, especially of Vangelis, Jean-Michel Jarre, Kraftwerk and Mike Oldfield... albums like "Albedo 0.39", "Tubular Bells", "Les Chants Magnetiques" (the English title would suggest "Champs", not "Chants"), "Chariots of Fire", "Trans-Europe Express", "Revolutions" or "The Friends Of Mr Cairo" will be forever in my ear and mind.



When I developed the interest of guitar-oriented music, that seed developed and I became especially interested in instrumental songs, such as Steve Vai's "Touching Tongues" or "For The Love of God", Joe Satriani's "Always With Me, Always With You" or "Rubina's Blue Sky Happiness", Eric Johnson's "Manhattan" or "Cliffs of Dover" and even Edward Van Halen's solo moments like "Baluchiterium" or "Neworld" (thought I'd write "Eruption", hey?)...

A third coming happened when I was introduced to chill-out music, especially the work of Zero 7 and Air... these artist stayed true to their origins while pushing the limits and breaking new boundaries.

Going back to the conceptual and (...), I've had thoughts and dreams about absolutely nonsensical events, but considering that we're only absolutely free in our mind, I can draw what I call "strings of coherence" in them and, ultimately, some strange and unrreal/surreal strings of words come out.

This one's just that.
I have the "strings of coherence" present.

"A distinct feeling takes over with the fading light,
A monochrome snapshot, not black nor white,
Colours dreamed in the mind I dwell (on),
"I loved you then, my Michele!"
Words I expel.

It grows on me like a sunset shadow, in the twilight,
There's an empathic struggle before the night,
And the numb feeling draws my prison cell,
There's comfort...
I'm unwell.

There might even not be any words to say or write,
A different story is to be said tonight,
The heat felt... a scent to smell,
This is all real...
(The) shotgun shell ('au natural').

The message is not whole,
Felt, known, lived...
Unnatural.

Only when a sunflower escapes from the sunlight,
There and then, a mercenary forfeits a fight,
This void has no parallel.
It is all unreal...
Not natural.

These words are no parable,
Uttered, perceived...
Unnatural."

      - in "Unnatural", since April 'til today.

Sum Veritas

Jesus Christ said, more than once: "Ergo sum veritas" or simply "Sum veritas".
This means: "I am the truth".

And this is what one has to be; a vehicle of truth, of undoubted concepts and ideas, for our own sake. We have to seek the truth and be able to speak it out loud.

The other option is to stay quiet.

Do you want to take this option?
You can go the easy way and lie.
Actually, that's also an option many decide to take by not deciding otherwise.

There are all kinds of questions to answer when the simple and bare truth is not the option taken.

"(You) don't have to be on your bended knees,
It's not like you're begging for mercy,
Or for your life...
Raise... (and move on...)
Stay...
I want to see your real self.

Let's drink the wine, taste the food,
Let's share intimate thoughts,
Don't take me for granted...
Praise... (can I rely on you?)
Pray...
Show me your real self.

Then you'll know if I want more.
Then you'll know if you want more.
But until then...

Let's hold hands, if it means anything,
Let's go our different paths, if we must,
And make it meaningful...
Chase... (even if I'm gone...)
Astray...
True to our true selves.

Then you'll know if this is more.
Then you'll know if this is for sure.
And there and then...

Words and thoughts as a true sanctuary,
Ever since first battles fought.
The truth is to clarify, to dignify,
What is and what is not.
Only by it you can be freed,
Only then it'll be worth your while.

Even if only for a moment,
Speak like you could also say:
'I am the truth!'."

      - in "Sum Veritas, by Hyug Badox